Follow the yellow brick road.

There are certain things in this world which make you think. And by think, I mean really think. Songs for instance...This is a quote from one of my favourite songs...
"cold in a summer breeze
yeah, you're shivering
on your bended knee
still, when you're heart is sore
and the heavens pour
like a willow bending with the storm, you'll make it
running against the wind
playing the cards you get
something is bound to give "
The song is called Hope for the Hopeless and it is by "A Fine Frenzy." This song just makes you stop... and think of all those times when its you feeling cold in a summer breeze or running against the wind... About all the times you thought there was no way you could get up, make it...but you did. And that's what life is all about. Sure we all get knocked down sometime. But that doesn't mean we can't pull ourselves back up. Maybe it really is easier said than done. I know I don't have a very positive outlook on life but maybe that's why my life needs a little more re-evaluating. Or maybe there is a reason we have those moments or days. Maybe it's to show us how human we all are. Inside. Individually. To show us that we will crash. We are meant to crash but we are also meant to pick up the pieces and move on. All we need is that one little spark of hope and we can do it. We were made to catch that one little spark and add fuel enough to make it so large, it can lead us out. Out of our dreary, dingy corner where we bury ourselves in those times. And when we need saving, we will find it.

Also, although it may seem a little morbid, I also think a thing like cancer can give you tons to think about. Recently, I've come into contact with a friend who just lost her mother to cancer. She has been telling me how she's been coping with it, how her family's been coping with it, and how it has actually triggered contact between her brother and herself, who haven't been in touch for 10 years. Death is a tragic thing but as one of my best friends always says, Everything Happens For A Reason. Sure, it takes a while to get over the whole thing, but a couple years later, you see how even though it changed your life completely, some of the changes were for the better. I have been talking to my friend for a couple days now, and we have become surprisingly good friends. Somehow, I find, helping her through her little moments when she feels down actually make me first of all, feel much better knowing I'm helping someone. And secondly, understand a little bit about human behaviour and how death affects us mortals. A death can obviously inflict pain upon a person, but it can also arouse anger, confusion, hatred, sadness, and several other things.
Some people believe that if they keep it bottled up inside, it will just disintegrate. Yeah.. right. Keeping all these emotions swirling inside you doesn't help anyone. Eventually, they're all going to fill every little bubble in your body to the point of you feeling so overwhelmed you could be in danger of combustion. Yes, it's hard for some people to display emotion openly, but who's telling you to cry in the middle of a busy square? Cry in the safety of your own four walls. Cry with your little brother, or your older sister... Just cry. or do something.

Yes, sorry got a little riled up there. I guess I have a lot to say on the subject. But I really do believe we have a lot of thinking to do in this world. And letting other people do it for us can't work for everyone. We all really just need to pave our own way, in our own colour, with our own materials. Just.. follow your own yellow brick road.

There I Stood

So, that thing I wrote last time.. I decided that was a one time mood thing, so I guess I'm not going to be able to finish it right now. Maybe some other time. In other news, I have been learning sign language. As embarrased as I am to say it, I have been hooked onto another amazing show. What is it with me and shows, eh? And its partly Canadian I may add. It's called Sue Thomas:F.B.Eye. The main character of that show, Sue Thomas, is deaf. Erego(bad spelling sorry), she uses ASL(American Sign Language) and also, quite brilliantly, she has mastered the art of reading lips AND talking. She really is inspiring. Ever since I started watching this show, I was very intrigued by all the sign language. So I decided to start learning some. So far, I know most of the alphabets by heart, and I'm proud to say I can finger spell a lot! Although I am a little fuzzy on the J and the Z. I've also been learning some words and I must say, this is all very enlightening.
To add to that topic, this show has really got me thinking...about the future. I know, that sounds very frightening doesn't it? It actually is pretty scary. Like, how are you supposed to know what you want to do for the rest of your life? That's just insane. Although, I do think I want an exciting job. I couldn't ever spend every hour of every day in an office cooped up filling papers. That is just too... mundane, if you will. I want to be out there, doing something. Maybe journalism. Who knows? Gotta keep my options open though right?? Pshh, when does that ever happen? All I know is that it needs to be in the city. Or close enough so it wouldn't take me too long to get to the city. I have this thing for having tall, flashy buildings around me. Billboards all around. Theaters, parking meters, a huge mall(like the Eaton Centre) and just the freedom the city offers. I don't know... this is all really scary to think about. Maybe later.
Signing off,

Deep Thinker