Monday, March 24, 2014

Questioning Development Part 1

     The more I live and work here in India, the more I realize the great divide that exists between this part of the world and the other. The other being the West. That is a different thought. The idea of Western society being prescribed the identity of "the Other." It shouldn't be such a strange concept but it really is. Otherness requires a kind of isolation, which if you really think about it, absolutely exists in the west.
     As a student of international development, I know I like to think of myself as an open-minded, knowledgeable and receptive person. I'd like to think of myself as someone who understands  cultural relativism and accepts what it really means in different parts of the world. But the more time I spend here in the "global South," the more I realize how much of a colonial approach the West takes, especially in terms of pedagogy. Despite being born in India and living here for the first seven years of my life (and several summer visits), I've had a completely one sided image of the country built up in my head.
     For years, we have been taught (limitedly at that) about India not as an overwhelmingly diverse and fascinating country, but as a subject of pity and as ground zero for development. I don't think I ever realized how condescending the term development (the context in which we use it) is/ tends to be. The connotation of development promotes this image of a completely backwards society that needs help from us in the West. Even as someone who has been to India many times, I found myself surprised by so many of the things I noticed and experienced here.
     What is it within our education system that reinforces the belief that Western society is superior and therefore has a moral obligation to help the rest of the world? Honestly, I think it's everything. From a young age, we are taught about the unsophisticated aspects of many of these countries, especially India. A classmate of mine in the third grade actually asked me if I hunt for my food, or if I had a pet elephant I rode to school everyday. Why, yes, yes I do. His name is Alejandro and he is my best friend in the whole world because apparently, he is the smartest of us all. But this is just as an example.
     One of the most apparent signs that the West continues to maintain this superiority complex is the behaviour of the American government. I'm not sure if anyone else watches the West Wing but the other day I was watching an episode and it was about the White House staff helping draft the Belarussian constitution or something like that. WHY does the United States government have to get itself involved in every single thing that the rest of the world is doing. It makes sense the term FOMO (fear of missing out) originated from the U.S. This incessant need to control everything stems from the perceived superiority and is then marketed into the West being a leader in saving the world.
    As someone who naively has always wanted to save the world, I can confidently say that our first priority should be to first correctly identify what the world's problem really is. And what saving the world would really mean or even look like. 

Monday, September 14, 2009

All in a day's work

So new developments, I am now completely vegetarian. Over the weekend, I met a friend of my sister's who is just so interesting and oh so convincing I felt motivated to take the plunge. I went from the three days a week, non-committal vegetarianism to the full fledged, maybe even bordering on vegan-vegetarianism. And it feels great. I can now honestly say I care about animals without feeling hypocritical. Not that eating meat means you don't care but how can I say I am against animal cruelty when I'm gobbling down a chicken caged and slaughtered in those awful slaughter houses. So hypocritical? I thought so. 
Maybe it'll cleanse my body of all meaty ingredients. It is, however, hard to find a substitute for milk. Which is good, considering I don't particularly like milk. Maybe being vegan isn't for everyone right? It's all about will power of course. I think i can do it. I officially started being full vegetarian on sundaay. So I am officially two days in. And for the record, it was sunday september 13th, 2009. Maybe I'll look back in a year and realize I just passed my first anniversary. That will be an exciting day! (: 
But anyway, his vegan lifestyle wasn't all we talked about. The three of us has this 3 and a half hour long talk about society in general. And my sister's strong dislike of capitalism somehow kept coming up. I don't know, I think government, no matter what kind it is, will always have its flaws. Although I do agree with her, capitalism has turned into something ugly controlled by these huge corporations determined to make "capital." It is all about money now isn't it? It's really all that matters, it controls the thoughts of everyone, especially the government, which doesn't always work out the best for it's citizens. Oh world, why do you have to revolve around the concept of money?

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Poster Pocket Plants Project

I was watching this Torontonian late night show featuring local artists and such online called Late Night In The Bedroom . There, I heard of these two guys who called themselves The Poster Pocket Plants guys. These guys fold out posters stuck up illegally around Toronto and use the niche as a pot for a plant. I've seen some around town and they are awesome! It's such a different form of street art that really attracts attention to the right things. I absolutely love what these guys are doing! It seems so simple, they even give a "tutorial" of how to make the poster pockets. I would love to do some around here, I'm going to have to find a good place for some planting, I guess. This is going to be a fun new project. This is their website for anyone interested. <http://posterpocketplants.blogspot.com> they are blogging their adventures all through summer, which, I guess, is now over. I hope they continue until the frost comes in. 

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

human stupidity

This world is absolutely insane. Why is war the only way to solve a problem?? Have we not evolved enough to make reasonable decisons yet? Why do we have violence in this world? It all began because of the superiority complex. Most men possess it because they think they are better than most others and they should be listened to insdtead of the other. They believe what they say is right and always try to one-up the other. This is what created this social darwinism in society. The need/hunger to be better than everyone else and being proud of it. Men have held their heads up high as the leaders of the world and just look where they have lead us. Instead of working together to solve world problems, we are all in competition with each other. The United States, one of the most powerful countries in the world right now, is clearly abusing that power. Bush, someone who I have no respect for, has lead the country into war blindly and now has the entire world debating about it. How can one country cause so much turmoil? Well, with Bush at its head, they can and have caused disaster. Why else do you think the world is in such chaos and can't seem to co-operate? In my opinion, it is because of the terrible examples world leaders have set. Without them acting greedy and selfish, how would we be able to congregate and all act greedy and selfish? Without the leaders of the world, we have no union and because our leaders are so corrupt, our world is damaged to the core.
Isn't greed a fabulous thing? Power, money, and fame is all that matters in this world now and somehow everyone has to learn to deal with it. Great... do we get a choice in that or is that entire decision up to Bush? What if we don't want that power, money or fame? Most probably, we will be isolated from the rest of the world. Society is stuck in a rut and people like Bush are digging in deep and getting ready for the winter. So who will help get the world out of this power hungry rut? Who knows...

Friday, May 23, 2008

Wow... I am in absolute awe. I have just returned from watching the second Narnia movie, Prince Caspian, and let me just tell you, it was, amazing. The actors were absolutely fantastic! Not to mention the boys were sooooo gorgeous and entertaining. Prince Caspian with his adorable accent, Peter with his concern for his brothers and sisters, and Edmund with his hilarious one liners! Overall, it was sooo good! It was very enjoyable to watch and included a little bit of everything.
There were three epic, unforgettable battles, a little bit of flirting and romance, comedy, lots of new faces and friendships, and just a wonderful story! So basically, there was something for everyone. Oh, and I can't forget the music. My favourite is The Call by Regina Spektor. It is such a perfect song for the movie and it fit in perfectly with the scene they used. Another good one was This Is Home by Switchfoot. Both these songs were absolutely awesome!

Wow... that just made my week SO much better. It hasn't been going very well but I've been waiting to see that movie for so long and let me just say, it did not disappoint at all. I am owning that movie when it comes out! It was soooo wonderful! I just can't get over it!!! It was sooo exciting and .... PERFECT wow. I didn't realize how excited I was to see that movie and now I have decided that I MUST watch it again! Oh man oh man oh man. I love Narnia. I wish I could live in Narnia.... with Prince Caspian *sighh* It is just so cool there. Mann! Anyway, I will stop talking about it, I promise.

Curently, I am listening to David Cook sing Day Tripper. I can never decide if i like it or not... He did win though and as much as I looooved Archie, I didn't really mind David COOk winning. Soo many people wanted Archuleta to win it was kind of surprising he didn't. Ah well, he still is an amazing singer and the cutest little thing ever! His smile on stage was soooo cute! hehe.
Oh well, I have to get back to work,
buh byee

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Vent of the week

There are some things in this world that are meant to take you far away from your problems and all your thoughts. For me, writing is one of those. But really, why do we even try to get away? We end up returning to the same shit hole later anyway. I'm having those things you call a bad day. So excuse me while I vent it out in writing.
This world really has crossed the lines with all its expectations bullshit. We all have to live up to some expectations of some kind. And even knowing how crappy it is to try to live up to someone's expectations, we still have our expectations for others! How bizarre is that?? Why do we even do it? To make people suffer so they know how it feels? Most people would say so others can live up to their full potential. BULLSHIT. That is total and utter shit and everyone knows it. Full potential? What kind of crap is that? How does anyone know someone else's FULL potential? They don't know jack! they just think they do and that gives them the right to do what? Make them feel like crap in hopes that it will motivate them knowing that they did so terrible? Where on Earth did we come up with that twisted logic?! This world has messed itself up so bad we don't even realize how stupid we're being.
Today, I heard from someone that they were making a big deal because Stephen Harper said he wasn't going to the Olympic Ceremony... And Bush was! Yay for Harper! What do they expect us to do? Throw a party in his honour?? This is the idiot who decided to withdraw Canada's name from the Kyoto Protocol just because the U.S. didn't. What the fuck do we owe him? Canada had a really good reputation and this drongo has gone and messed it all up. We are acting as if we are part of the U.S! We aren't and we never will be! So why doesn't Bush go and suck on that! It's just really hard to believe that a trivial thing like our prime minister not going to the Olympic ceremony is a bigger deal than Canada's stupidity and the withdrawal of their name from something like the Kyoto Protocol. The Kyoto Protocol was made to SAVE the Earth and these idiots are REFUSING to sign it. U.S. and Australia were the only two countries to not sign it until our ass of a prime minister decided to worship Bush's every move and withdrew Canada's name. I really don't get what the fascination is with this man. Why the hell is he so freaking special? Screw him! He's done nothing but destroy our world! He goes to war on Afghanistan and then Iraq. His country is one of the biggest contributors to global warming and he won't even agree to reduce their carbon emissions! Why does he hate the world??? WHAT DID WE DO TO HIM? If you think about it, there really isn't such a big difference between him and Hitler. Maybe they should get together and go bowling.
I know it's probably really odd, but I think my middle name is odd. Life is just so confusing. One day, you want to be a surgeon, the next, a journalist, and the next an FBI agent. Is there something wrong with me? Am I really supposed to know what I want to do for the REST OF MY LIFE? It seems so insane. And how are you really supposed to know? How the fuck are we supposed to live like this? Everyone's pressuring us to figure it out! How do we do it?? They've been through it, can't they understand sometimes it doesn't work out like that? MOTHER OF GOD. Seriously. Going back to my original point. Those times when we need a break? Why do we try? So we can get a fresh start? So we can feel refreshed? WHY? Why do we even have to try so hard in life? Everything just messes up as soon as we fix it anyway. There reallly is NO point. There are some people who seem so perfect but they're breaking apart inside somehow. Are we supposed to learn how to fix it?

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Follow the yellow brick road.

There are certain things in this world which make you think. And by think, I mean really think. Songs for instance...This is a quote from one of my favourite songs...
"cold in a summer breeze
yeah, you're shivering
on your bended knee
still, when you're heart is sore
and the heavens pour
like a willow bending with the storm, you'll make it
running against the wind
playing the cards you get
something is bound to give "
The song is called Hope for the Hopeless and it is by "A Fine Frenzy." This song just makes you stop... and think of all those times when its you feeling cold in a summer breeze or running against the wind... About all the times you thought there was no way you could get up, make it...but you did. And that's what life is all about. Sure we all get knocked down sometime. But that doesn't mean we can't pull ourselves back up. Maybe it really is easier said than done. I know I don't have a very positive outlook on life but maybe that's why my life needs a little more re-evaluating. Or maybe there is a reason we have those moments or days. Maybe it's to show us how human we all are. Inside. Individually. To show us that we will crash. We are meant to crash but we are also meant to pick up the pieces and move on. All we need is that one little spark of hope and we can do it. We were made to catch that one little spark and add fuel enough to make it so large, it can lead us out. Out of our dreary, dingy corner where we bury ourselves in those times. And when we need saving, we will find it.

Also, although it may seem a little morbid, I also think a thing like cancer can give you tons to think about. Recently, I've come into contact with a friend who just lost her mother to cancer. She has been telling me how she's been coping with it, how her family's been coping with it, and how it has actually triggered contact between her brother and herself, who haven't been in touch for 10 years. Death is a tragic thing but as one of my best friends always says, Everything Happens For A Reason. Sure, it takes a while to get over the whole thing, but a couple years later, you see how even though it changed your life completely, some of the changes were for the better. I have been talking to my friend for a couple days now, and we have become surprisingly good friends. Somehow, I find, helping her through her little moments when she feels down actually make me first of all, feel much better knowing I'm helping someone. And secondly, understand a little bit about human behaviour and how death affects us mortals. A death can obviously inflict pain upon a person, but it can also arouse anger, confusion, hatred, sadness, and several other things.
Some people believe that if they keep it bottled up inside, it will just disintegrate. Yeah.. right. Keeping all these emotions swirling inside you doesn't help anyone. Eventually, they're all going to fill every little bubble in your body to the point of you feeling so overwhelmed you could be in danger of combustion. Yes, it's hard for some people to display emotion openly, but who's telling you to cry in the middle of a busy square? Cry in the safety of your own four walls. Cry with your little brother, or your older sister... Just cry. or do something.

Yes, sorry got a little riled up there. I guess I have a lot to say on the subject. But I really do believe we have a lot of thinking to do in this world. And letting other people do it for us can't work for everyone. We all really just need to pave our own way, in our own colour, with our own materials. Just.. follow your own yellow brick road.